献丑了，小女子的拙作

赶一场生命的约会。

上个星期天，趁着休假，我去了观看尼泊尔人的葬礼。在Pashupatinath 的焚化场，我静静的坐在Bagmati 圣河对岸的梯阶上两个多小时，默默的目睹了一整场葬礼的过程。

虽然尼泊尔人不比 印度人那么有阶级之分，但是火葬场里还是区分了贫民区和富有区。不经意的听到在一傍讲述的导游说，贫民区的火葬费用大约是五千卢比，而富有区的费用则是大约一万卢比。付得较多钱的家属就可以到Bagmati 河上游举行烧尸仪式。

听到这里，心里不禁 出现一个念头，原来贫穷和富有的区分就在于那五千卢比（马币200 零吉）？多给了那五千卢比，家属就会被冠上富裕的光环，而死者就可以伴与 较上等的木材禾草来焚化？无论如何，家属悲痛的心情和激动的告别并没有因为贫穷或富裕而有所差别。

尸体均由黄绢裹缠送到焚化场，然后被放在河边做最后的清洗。通常死者的儿子会先打开裹缠着死者双脚的黄绢，用Bagmati 河的水清洗双脚，然后再把圣水洒在死者的脸上。过后再用多层的绢布重复的裹缠 着尸体，这个时候，富裕的家庭就会用不同颜色和上好的绢布替死者作最后的打扮，然后铺上花圈和洒上Tikka 粉（红色的颜料粉）。道别仪式过后，尸体就会被送到焚化台 点火燃烧。

在观看人生最后一场秀的当下，我看到了另一种情景，一个在死亡里寻找生计的街童。在熊熊烈火烧得噼里啪啦的当儿，Bagmati 河 里站了好几个街童，使劲的往河里捞，显然是想要找一些没有被烧成灰而又值钱的东西。河流的下流，也 守了好几个街童，尝试用竹竿来打捞那些被抛入河里的绢布。我希望他们没有把那些绢布转卖给制衣商。

在生与死之间，我看到了求生存的街童，不舍 的家属和走完了他人生路程的死者；一个人生的缩影。 人生当中，我们常常在不同的阶段，努力的做好自己本分，求 的就是当生命来到尽头的时候 可以骄傲的 回想起自己不悔的一生。

一阵凉风吹过，停留在我的肩膀上的灰粒，会不会是刚才那位老伯伯呢？

珍惜当下，与大家共勉之。

糖果

虽然说不要给小孩买糖果，但是小孩毕竟是喜欢吃甜食的。所以星期天还是给他们带来了糖果和巧克力， 就但是和小朋友一起 庆祝我的生日。

近年来的生日，我都为自己找个借口买礼物。 可以是一支手表或是一趟旅行，在自己能力范围之内，物质上的享受应有尽有。

今年，我为我自己买了一趟不一样的旅行， 一个我之前一直想做但是又没有勇气去实行的事情。

一切起源于网上的一篇文章，一篇生动地描写了当事人在尼泊尔当义工情景的文章启发了我。让我觉得是时候不再空想象，应该要提起勇气去实行了。

最近看了原本书，很喜欢当中的一句话 “ Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be”. 借此与大家共勉之.

A Peaceful night

It was yet another holiday on tuesday. I got exhausted by the kids trying to prepare the up coming Saturday parade and also the drawing competition. I really had enough for the 3 consecutive holidays in a week.
After the dal bhat, I return to my house. I try to finish my laundry in the rooftop before the power cut off at 8pm. Just at the rooftop while I m washing my cloths with my bare hand, I found myself this piece of tranquil land. Away from the crowded kitchen n living room which is now pack with volunteers. I think I just need some undisturbed moment for myself. I enjoy washing the cloths with the company of the stars n the new moon.
After my laundry, I decided to make myself a cup of tea n bring along my book to continue the night at rooftop. I enjoy looking up to the dazzling swanyabhu temple on the top of the hill while I m having a break from my book.

At 8 pm, I see the light went off for the whole area. I watch the stars, which previously over shined by the street lights start popping out from the dark sky. Soon the whole sky was a glitzy show of stars.

As I can no longer able to read my book in the dark unless I use my torch light to do so. I close my book and start enjoying the gentle cold breeze. On and off, I can hear the chanting from far and the dog barking.

This is really the peaceful moment that I had been long waited for both physically and mentally. I felt calm in my mind, the peacefulness that you will not be able to experience when u have too much to go on in your mind.

I start to practice meditation, the way my brother teaches me to. Of course I didn’t really go into the meditation stage, but I am glad that I am able to sit still and think free for a while. Trust me, the meditation method do helps me thro some sleepless night and it is a good way to calm yourself down in what so ever trouble you are going thro.

Sipping my cup of tea and I continue enjoying the night.......

This is a wonderful night for me :)